Need

 
Thirst consumed me.
In all my life, I’d never felt this thirsty.
There I stood in front of all those precious women,
and the only thing that stood between my glass of water and me was …
the podium.
 
The appendectomy
and the infection that had spread
 throughout my abdomen had weakened me
the two weeks prior to this speaking engagement.
But I determined, by God’s grace,
not to give the enemy victory.
 
After being handed a microphone
that I would hold throughout the presentation,
my first thought was:
everyone will see my hand shaking.
Instead,
my right hip muscle decided to go spastic.
 
It was hilarious, really.
Had I not been advised –
 “never tell people you are nervous,”
I would have shared it.
It deserved a good laugh.
 
Halfway through the presentation,
the thirst crept in.
I looked across the podium to see my water glass.

I gazed.
I needed.
I thirsted.

I paused.
 
In those moments that would lapse by,
I thought I might collapse.
 
And I wondered …
do I ask for someone to bring it to me?
Do I place this microphone down
and go get it?

I didn’t.

 
 
Why? 
 
There are things we need and never ask for.
Why don’t we ask?
 
We don’t feel deserving.
I blamed myself
for not taking a water bottle to the podium with me.
I should have known better, I told myself.
 
We don’t want to be a bother.
Much had already been given.
Was it really important
in the big scheme of things?
 
Fear.
I was afraid if I stopped mid-presentation,
in my weakened condition,
I might stumble over my words …
get side-tracked.
 
 The need feels out of reach.
It was right there in front of me …
I could see it …
But I couldn’t reach it.
 
When we don’t feel deserving …
When we dread being bothersome …
When we aren’t brave enough to ask …
When we think something is out of reach …
 
Remember:
 
“… your Father knows
what you need<sup class="crossreference" value="(A)”> before you ask him.”
Matthew 6:8
 
Doubts, insignificance, fears, timidity –
in spite of my sundry weaknesses,
the Lord replenished my thirst.
He knew my need.
As I poured out my heart to those precious women,
He poured in.
The thirst passed.
I was enabled to press on.
He made me strong.

“Jesus answered,
‘Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again,  
but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst.<sup class="crossreference" value="(J)”>
Indeed, the water I give them
will become in them a spring of water<sup class="crossreference" value="(K)”> welling up to eternal life.'”
John 4: 13-14
 
We are but a vapor in need of a downpour of Jesus.

 



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2 thoughts on “Need

  1. Ah, the joy of public speaking!

    You got the 'need' perfectly.

    The first talk I gave – to an audience of 300 – the Powerpoint went down, and I tripped over the microphone cord (needless to say, the mike didn't work either).

    So I was left with 'projecting' the message – “Well, if you could see the slide this is what you'd see.”

    And I got a standing ovation at the end of it, along with a lot of laughter.

    Yee-ha!

    http://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2014/04/is-it-ever-too-late-for-your-marriage.html

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  2. Andrew, that's hilarious! I love hearing people's speaking stories! I saw a guy singing the other night … the mike flew out of his hand, and he ran, grabbed it up, and continued on. Hilarious! You had the point without the electrical power! Ha! But I know you had God's power! You kept going … way to go!

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