From the balcony, I watch my daughter, surrounded by all her Vacation Bible School kids and fellow volunteers in the choir loft.
I took pictures all week for VBS, capturing both my girls in their joyful moments of working with kids. Moments my girls don’t have to be talked into … time they love, hours they long to give.
Goose bumps sweep my arms and tears spring to my eyes, as I see my daughter surrender her all through song. Glorious VBS songs.
My daughter was that little just yesterday, it seems. Little enough for Vacation Bible School. And I’m thankful to God for her love of ministry, her love for children, and her love of teaching them about Jesus. Without having to be coerced.
How did she get all grown up?
A lady that I recently met–we have adoption in common–taps my shoulder and wraps me in a hug there in the balcony. Just what I needed. How did she know?
Father God, you always know.
The days are fleeting, and soon both my girls will be gone from our home. I can’t hold them back, and I wouldn’t if I could. But time is flooring-it, zooming by, and I don’t want to miss a moment.
I smile, thinking over the last week, remembering one of the best days of my life, when I floored it. When I really floored it.
The girls and I are driving home from the mall. It’s been a long day of shopping, eating pizza, and the Great American Cookie. The mall is our favorite thing to do together. No one has to be talked into going.
But we’re routine. Not only do we frequent the same mall shops, but as soon as we turn onto our road, we also look for our crooked mailbox, for home. We turn down that familiar driveway. It’s what we’ve always done. It’s what we love.
But today … something is different about today. We have music roaring over the speakers, the windows rolled down, and as we approach the house, my daughter slows the car.
We need a change. We need to be rejuvenated. We need to really live.
A pause hovers throughout the space, and the vision becomes clear.
“Floor it, Karalee!” I say.
She searches me, trying to make sense of the nonsensical one. The one who’s always routine. The one who has to be gently nudged into memorable moments, like VBS or playing cards.
Her stunned expression is just what I needed, and I’m laughing so hard.
“Floor it!” I say.
A warm smile slowly inches over my daughter’s face, understanding dawning.
She floors it. Has she ever floored it before?
We fly past our mailbox, past our home, and zoom down our deserted county road, our hair blowing every which way. When she comes to a stop, we three girls are laughing so hard we can barely contain ourselves.
What have we just done? Where did Mom go?
Oh my goodness, we’ve lived, we’ve laughed, we’ve broken out of that moldy mold.
We can’t believe ourselves.
Daughter turns the car around, and she floors it again of her own initiative. Zooms past our home, past that crooked mailbox.
We are all three laughing so hard that we can’t seem to catch our tears.
Until, oh man, we calm and realize that we should go home. Because not every neighbor on our road will understand that we need to live, because maybe they’re too routine, caught in that moldy mold.
But life is zooming by. The clock refuses to stop.
As I watch my daughter–a grown lady now–in that choir loft, singing out her heart and helping the kids surrounding her, I know what I have to do to make life count. And I know that it’s never too late.
When life “floors it,” as it always will, I need to floor it, too.
Have you ever felt the need to “floor it”? Have you floored it?! I’d love to hear your story, of how you stepped out of your daily routine to really live.